What is it about being given a new chance, a change, that gets us all revved up and making resolutions? I have not been posting because I have been living in such a misery of financial issues and the stress of job hunting, interviewing, waiting, worrying. Letting myself down by overeating and not exercising even though I know it is counterproductive.
I finally got a job offer - or at least a "two week trial" for a full time position. The uncertainty of it and our financial need made it clear I would keep the weekend job - so I would be commuting to the one position 5 days a week, keeping me away from home from 7 am until 5:45 pm. and then working 3-11 on Saturday and Sunday.
This weekend I had committed to work from noon until 11 to help a coworker. I was a bit sorry when I saw that the weather was supposed to be (and was) beautiful and warm - but when I added that to having worked at the new job and going back out on Monday morning at 7 am I was worried about being at my best.
But when I came to work at the hotel I was offered a full time job - someone had given notice! While there are some pluses to the other job - the commute is such a huge negative (and the fact that it shuts me out from working with my sister in the staging business for extra income,) really makes it no contest. So I am going to be able to finally have a full time job with benefits with time to do other things, like go to the gym and see people and have flexibility.
So I am looking out at the lovely day and thinking of all the things I will be able to do in the days to come - promising that I will actually do them and not get caught up in misery and depression and let time go by -
not let time be wasted.